We have so much happening on so many levels right now. Things have sped up and intensified in all ways. There is no turning back now as we are being laid bare emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Many are feeling that they are in fact in a different reality with a different set of energetic rules that must now be figured out. Until we get our footing in this new energetic territory we will have to feel our way through. This can cause major disruptions not only in our field but “out there”.
It can feel like a push and pull taking place. Many distortions that were in our field are making themselves known. We are being asked to let it all go and the ease in which we do this can often determine how gracefully we go through this process. It can feel like there are multiple aspects of self wanting attention all at the same time. The part that wants clarity, concrete direction, and guarantees. The part that is hurting and frustrated that needs to be heard, honored and loved in order to be released. Then there is the part that knows it is all perfect, in divine order and exactly what is needed to move forward. It becomes an interesting ride as we learn to hear all the layers, love them and in that space blend them into one.
It can also feel as if we have come full circle. We are being faced with fears, circumstances, and emotions that we thought we had moved through, conquered or vanquished. While frustrating the difference is we now have the tools and the knowledge to move through it and change directions.
It is asking us to feel the similar feelings, experience the similar pain but to choose differently. It is asking us if we can see through our own patterning and not react from a place of pain and fear but of love and compassion. The energies are asking if we have learned from the route we took before and if we can choose a heart-centered response. It is in that response that we open different doorways to new expressions of self and the higher trajectory timeline.
I had financial fears come up so very strongly that I found myself pushing more and more to stave off whatever financial doom my mind told me was coming. (Of course, I can see this now as hindsight is 20/20.) At the time, I didn’t realize the subconscious fears that were pushing me. I only noticed that I was feeling off and went into a shamanic journey to ask my team what I need to do ease the energy drain.
They showed me the pattern very clearly in a way I had not understood before. In the past I only allowed myself to rest once my body had collapsed. The last collapse led to my physical debilitation, bankruptcy and selling off of my land and animals. When my body started sending signals that it needed more time for rest, meditation and silence; my subconscious immediately brought up the fears of lack and loss. I realized I was at a choice point. I can do what I have always done which is to not take care of myself, to let fear of lack push me into a collapse or I could take a step back, lighten my schedule, and take care of me.
I choose to do the different thing even in the face of all the fears. I knew deep within that all will flow as long as I am in alignment within. It has been an amazing time as I trust in spirit and be with myself. So much has opened up since then just because I didn’t allow the same programming to run and run. Without that constant noise, there is space for the new to come in.
We are being asked to really work on the inner dialog and the negative voice that often runs just below the surface. The astrology and energies of this time will make the unseen thoughts louder so that they become seen. While this may make for a difficult time, this negative inner voice must be seen… and loved. It needs to be acknowledged and heard, but not bought into. You can validate that there is a part of you that feels insecure, scared, or less than without allowing those feeling to dominate you and take over. These energies are only increasing and all that is not in alignment with our soul is coming up to be seen, loved, and integrated.
We are entering eclipse season that will last for the next month and include the 8/8 Lion’s gate gateway. These are powerful cosmic triggers that highlight all that needs changing but also what your heart’s desire is as well as long as you have the courage to go after it. My team has been consistently showing me that the rules of reality and even some aspects of physics are also belief systems that need to go if we are to access our full potential.
Wherever your life is not in alignment with your higher good will make itself known. This may show itself as increased stress, a collapsing of what you thought was secure, and events that cause stress but bring up the emotions that you are needing to see. What is also happening is that events are happening to put you into alignment with your true self and your true desires. This can look like changing jobs, changing or redefining relationships, moving, going back to school and even death and pregnancy.
The hardest part of facing a change is the fear we hold when we don’t know what the next steps will be. This is where your soul is asking you to trust him/her, to give your soul the permission to collapse what no longer serves so that what does make your heart sing has room to come in. We can no longer walk comfortably between the world of what our heart wants and what our minds/belief systems say we should do.
Releasing of Physical TraumaThe body is going through massive change and release. The physical body is releasing its physical traumas and as it does this we can experience incredible physical and emotional pain. Some of what is releasing right now is also past life trauma.
I have been spending massive amounts of time in nature to facilitate this process. At one point I lay on the grass releasing body traumas (abuse, surgeries etc.), I found myself letting out the most guttural cry imaginable at the horror of it all. At the same time, I felt incredibly held by the earth which was beautiful. As I lay there sobbing, I heard my higher-self say – now forgive, forgive all of it. I was shown that I needed to release all that had been done to me (in this life and others) and at the same time forgive myself for all that I had done.
I began to say “I forgive all those who have abused me and forgive myself for abuse I have done. I release it all now back to Source and thank it for the experience.”
I did this for everything I could remember happening to me in my lifetime. Letting myself feel the impact of true forgiveness of it all. Then I went deeper and began to forgive on another level; with the realization that in our many, many lives and experiences we have done it all. The good, bad, the ugly. We have swung way to the left and way to the right and now we are being asked to return to center.
I began to say: “I forgive all those who have murdered me and forgive myself for murdering others. I release it all back to Source and thank it for the experience.”
I did this for every horrible thing I could think of that takes place on this planet. I let all the anger, disgust, and horror go as my tears soaked the ground. When I was done I felt like a limp dishrag, completely wrung out, but so light and free. I will do this again and again until it is done and the trauma stored in the body has been released.
Embodiment of the soul means we realize that we are the sum total of all our SOULS experiences on earth from now and other lifetimes. It is about forgiving and loving all parts of self and in turn, do the same for others. In a world of non-duality, we can forgive, love and still not condone the acts one does; they are not mutually exclusive.
PhysicallyAs usual, we are all over the place with symptoms, if one person has a runny nose we can expect that another will experience a dry nose. Be aware that hyper-focus on what is wrong with the body can actually exacerbate how miserable one feels. Focus instead on what makes you happy even if it only lasts for a short time. I can’t stress enough about connecting with nature to ease this time period. Also, movement with intention and breath is very helpful as is energy and bodywork. Ensuring that you are hydrated and full of trace minerals and cell salts are helpful as well.
The physical body can really struggle with all the energies. Please don’t hesitate to seek assistance. Quite a few people are struggling with their endocrine system which can cause anxiety, depression, thyroid, heart palpitations, hormonal issues, hair loss, adrenal fatigue and weight gain. The glands that make up the endocrine system produce hormones that regulate the activity of cells and organs. This entire system is undergoing a massive overhaul as our DNA upgrades.
Headaches are also very common. One of the reasons is that the reptilian part of the brain, the one that holds all the fears and judgment is being upgraded as well. It is a necessary part of the return of the original blueprint that does not contain duality. Here again, obtaining assistance with this is helpful: Energy work, massage, cranial sacral, chiropractic alignment are just a few options for help.
The CollectiveMany are beginning to awaken. Some in their discomfort are wanting to project onto others. I’m seeing where people are trying to bait others. Walk away, it will only drain your precious vital energy.
Some are seeking to validate their personal truths by demanding that others see it their way. Do your best to not engage. We each have our own truth and experience. If you are wanting your own truth to be validated, know that it does not come from someone or something out there, it must come from within.
It can appear that things are getting darker and darker. They are not. They ARE getting louder and louder. They need to in order for them to be so obvious they can no longer be ignored. Belief systems not in alignment must collapse in order for us to discover our own magnificence and power.
The collective is awakening slowly and this will cause a massive “dark night of the soul”. It’s not pretty, but it is necessary. This is the time that we were warned about, that we were prepared for. We were told to shine our light and hold space during these tumultuous times. Remember, in each moment we have a choice to either get lost in the emotional swamp or shine our light while holding space for others.
When I asked about what it means to hold space as I have loved ones awakening, I was told that it means to be the container. To provide the structure for one to awaken to their fears, pain, loneliness, and finally to their truth without judgment or condemnation. It brought back when I began to awaken and how alone I felt. I had no one to talk to about it and I honestly thought I was going insane. How wonderful it would have been to have someone be a sounding board, a voice of compassion and reason without judgment or attempting to put their agenda on me. Many of us are now being asked to be that person for others.
I hope that this blog finds you well and really digging in deep to discover who you are at your core while at the same time getting rid of who you are not. Sending you all lots of love!