Thursday March 5 2020
“I wish grace and healing were more abracadabra kind of things. Also, that delicate silver bells would ring to announce grace's arrival. But no, it's clog and slog on the floor, in the silence, in the dark.” Anne Lamott
Take heart! If it feels as if you are lost in a dystopian nightmare where all the old escape routes are blocked, where a dense fog of manufactured fear, confusion and fake news is constellating a collective sense of both hopelessness and helplessness, you have a choice. Either to buy into the belief that this is permanent/fatal and sink into drama and victim consciousness waiting in vain for someone to save you and or to trust your knowledge, experience and faith in ever evolving planetary cycles and stay on your Witness perch.
The fog is going to clear and when it does, you want to be ready to navigate the new terrain, ready to make choices that will take you closer to your purpose, not leave you lying flattened by the side of the road. From March 19th, a wave of enormous planetary momentum and opportunity is going to lift us off our feet as Mars conjuncts first Jupiter, then Pluto and Saturn just as the Lord of Karma enters Aquarius for the first time since 1991 in Aquarius. All magnified in early April when the first of 3 Jupiter/Pluto conjunctions seeds an ongoing process of regeneration and resurrection.
But right now, we are in the thick of it. Mercury has been travelling slowly retrograde back through the first 17 degrees of disorienting hall of mirrors Pisces and is slowing to turn forward again next Monday 9th -kicking up a huge trickster dust storm of fear, doubt and uncertainty- just as the Sun conjuncts slippery Neptune in Pisces and the first Super Moon of 2020 next Monday fritzes our energy fields.
It looks as if, over the next few days in this seismic geophysical energy of the Virgo Super Full Moon, we will slowly begin to grasp the huge shift in our belief systems that relentless outer events and reality checks are forcing us to make. We’re not in Kansas anymore and our old systems are no longer a safety net. We are learning how to live in the chaordial, in free fall, walking the edge between chaos and order.
2020’s epochal events are a meta-mirror you can’t avoid. As Without, so Within. Wherever you go, there you are. And this embodiment process has a way of blowing up your life as you knew it. The new 5D frequency of freedom being introduced into your reality, into your body and mind doesn’t follow the same ordered patterns of the old 3D energy. You cannot spiritually by-pass your physicality since the body is the vector for enlightenment. It is literally the delivery mechanism by which you experience the vastness of who you really are. And, of course, your mind is having a hard time with it. It keeps trying to figure out how to make this transformation smoother, more graceful, less painful. And that mind truly believes that will happen if it keeps trying to find order in the chaos.
Be kind to yourself, be patient and tender towards your growing edge. The past is withdrawing from us as we disable it. If you're feeling - as so many of us sensitives are - down, depleted, drained, alone or in a void like floating on the Dead Sea, understand that you are not fading, falling or failing but energetically detaching from the ending of many planetary cycles. Instead of focusing on what isn't working or what might happen, allow yourself as much rest, withdrawal and non -doing as you can as the physical and psychic cleansing builds. Your body is a messenger with feedback about your current operating system. Be present in your body and allow outworn gestalts, debris, illusions, attachments and patterns to dissolve while absorbing the incoming deep space energies at cellular level.
