Even though you might not notice much difference in your interests, you likely feel exhausted or overwhelmed, unlike what was once true following similar activities or sleep patterns.
You are changing twenty-four hours a day. At the same time, you are attempting to continue your 3D world demands – it is too much.
Even though similar thoughts seem to have been true during previous holiday seasons, this year is different. The activities you participate in and prepare for do not seem to be that much fun. You just want to be home – until you do not. And when you leave your home, you want to be home again. You feel as if you are searching for something that never appears. The activities hold your interest minimally, and interactions feel stilted, uncomfortable, and likely boring.
Nothing seems to jell no matter how often you cry to the Universes or your inner being. You no longer want to comply with the demands of others, yet you feel like an unpleasant person, even to yourself.
You have crossed yet another Rubicon.
It is time to ignore what used to be and to create what is now. But new creations will not be possible until you stop berating yourself for not being right, kind, or good enough. Allow yourself to let go of what was. Freefall into who you have become – and ignore who you feel you should be.
Let go and come alive.
Many of you contend that you cannot or will not let go. Creating an unpleasant life for both yourself and those close to you. Your resulting self-anger spills out into your interactions with others. The nervous energy encouraging you to be different must be tamped down for you to ignore it. And so there is a certain point, almost daily, in which the pressure cooker you created within yourself explodes.
Instead of trying to hold yourself together in 3D rightness, allow yourself to be you. Who are you? Instead of who you used to be. You can no longer pretend that you have not evolved. Nor can you pretend that your immediate world is as it was. Trying to do so merely confuses and angers you, as well as any beings who have transitioned.
This is a time of inner and outer honesty. Something you have never before experienced while of the earth. Previously, you had inner thoughts that were not always aligned with your outer actions – but so did everyone. Your holiday movies portrayed your life as you wished it to be. And your interactions forced you into the correct behavior at the correct time. Because those facades have been removed, you are in a quandary attempting to recreate what likely never was. You try to be nice, good, and all the other words that are especially appropriate for this time of year, but doing so only confuses you and often makes you angry.
Where is your joy and sense of fun during this season? Why is everything such an effort? Questions that indicate you are not being true to your new being.
What gives you joy and intrigues you NOW? You seldom answered those questions during your 3D life, for those questions were so tied to your social norms that you did not believe you had many options. Now that social parameters have disappeared, you must discover yourself – not necessarily an easy task. That discovery is often coated with who you should or want to be instead of who you are. Creating discomfort during this supposedly most joyous holiday season.
Only you can answer the question, “What can or should I do differently?”
It is not right for new you if you are angry or uncomfortable with any activity. Your likely response is, “I have to do this because it is expected of me or there is no one else to do it.” We of the Universes must add, “Then create what you need to be comfortable, whether that means not participating in something, creating an activity more in tune with who you have become, or creating the means to reduce or eliminate your need to care for others.
You are learning how to flit into the new without remorse, guilt, or shame – as are others. Creating a new world. But because this holiday season has more shoulds than is expected at any other time of the year, it is not necessarily easy to do so. Be kind to yourself – you are maturing and evolving rapidly. The result of that growth is your current confusion and likely exhaustion.
So be it. Amen.
