PAIN

“O divine sweet pain

I was blind

And did not see

That you are my friend

Not my enemy”

Can  you imagine
Love hiding in Pain?

Your undivided devotion to me

Touches my heart

You never let go

Even though I treat you so bad,

You stay put!

And believe me…

How I have been creative

In trying to get rid of you J

Escaping, ignoring, hiding…

Resisting you with frustration...

I felt blocked by you,

And even though I tried

To heal the wound beneath

You are still here with me

You've learned me so many things:

Grow up, listen, change course,

Letting go...

But even though I learned and healed

You are still here with me

WHAAAAAAAAA

You even expanded and intensified

WHAAAAAAAAA

(…)

and then…

something happened

It came to me very clearly!

I was doing all these things

From one motive only.

Even though I have denied doing so…
Thinking I already had mastered this lesson

But actually was being fooled by my mind:

I just wanted you to GO AWAY!

So attached to my actions

Of healing and so-called accepting,

was the wish that you would go away

I acted in order to have this gain!

Also known as: manipulation!

For a long time I hoped

That when waking up from my night's rest

You would have vanished in thin air J

Well…thát never happened ;-)

For all good reason…

I had not learned the essential lesson of it all:

I acted from the wrong motive

As Love is my core motivation

of everything I feel and do,

Why not Pain?

So forgive me my Friend

I know now that I have treated you badly

I will embrace you from Love

And ask you to guide me along

As the teacher you always have been

As a part of me

Namasté

Iris

♥✿♥