Energy Update: Coming Home
by Jenny Schiltz
It
has been a while since I blogged an energy update because I have been
so deep in the changes myself. It really is an extraordinary time of not
only physical changes but profound changes in how we think of the world
and ourselves. It has been said many times that this time period is the
time in which truth comes to light. Most of the time when I have seen
this reference it is followed by upcoming revelations within the
government, pharmaceuticals, and corruption throughout the world. Yet,
that negates what is truly happening with the energies. We are being
shown the truth deep within ourselves. We are being exposed completely.
All that we thought we understood, our very foundation is being rattled.
Our shadow, our inner child will no longer stay in the back ground, it
is rising up to show us our patterns, where we have limited ourselves
and where we still hold deep pain. No longer can we minimize our
experiences because they have had such a huge impact. This is not to say
that we need to rehash them or relive them, it is to simply say – it is
time the truth arises.
When
I say the words, the shadow must come to light, I almost want to roll
my own eyes and say “I’ve done shadow work, I have embraced myself.”
Yet, through all the work, I know in my heart that I am now exploring
another level. When we first begin this journey we start to look at who
we are, our light and our dark sides and at times the mood swings seem
to take us to either end of the spectrum. Each swing is showing us how
light we can be and also just how much is hidden.
As
we look into both sides of the spectrum, we begin to accept our light
and also our darkness. We begin to heal. It is not that the light
overcomes the shadow, it is simply that we learn to love all parts of
ourselves. What was hidden, is now being loved and accepted and
integrated into the whole.
As
we merge more with our light and our shadow, the mood swings become
fewer. Yet when they do occur, we seem to go deeper and deeper.
Exploring the deepest recesses of our subconscious and where the
beliefs, pattering and programming were created.
What
arises does not come up just for you to know it is there but for you to
see where it has affected you, conditioned you, and held you back. “The
truth shall set you free” has so much meaning right now. Our job is to
look at what we are being shown, see not the event (s) but to see what
beliefs we created or adopted and how it has impacts us in this now.
Once it is realized, we can then overwrite it.
Healing
ourselves, making ourselves whole is a process and we are only shown
what we are ready to heal now. It is not a one shot deal. The goal is
to heal ourselves, integrate the shadow and the light; love each part of
ourselves completely so that we are the walking embodiment of our soul
essence.
With
the accelerated timeline now anchored in, there is a push for us to see
our shadow, love it, and embrace it. Then we can begin to rewrite the
patterns by choosing different, by seeing the faulty logic that created
them.
For
many during these energy blasts there are moments of pure bliss, of
feeling connected. We get a taste of that higher light and where we are
headed and it feels wonderful. As you progress on this journey the times
and duration in which you flow in that frequency get much longer. What
is difficult is dealing with the crash, the fall down into feeling
sadness, despair or disconnection. I asked my highest aspect why we
experience these dips and she explained that with each increase in light
(frequency) all that cannot be sustained in that light must go. All of
our shadow, our deep wounds come up, louder and louder, so that it can
be resolved and balanced within.
Understand
that for us to be our pure soul essence, completely embodied, all of
our parts must merge back into our whole. Our shadow, inner child, soul
pieces left behind and aspects of self. They must all be healed,
reconciled and merged within. This is no small task and it takes
tremendous time and effort to bring all of ourselves home. When we don’t
take the time to do the inner child work, to dive into the recesses of
our shadow or to find the soul pieces left behind it will become evident
in our reality. We will be shown time and time again, in our
relationships and inner dialog what our patterns and wounds are until
you put all the pieces together.
Using
sleep intentions have been a huge help for me. Each night I check in as
I am going to sleep and let my guides know how I am doing physically,
emotionally, mentally and what I need assistance with. It does not
matter if you are able to hear them, know that they hear you. I began
asking for assistance with bringing all my parts home, to be shown the
pieces of the shadow that were buried deep, and what patterning and
beliefs needed to go. It has been quite a journey, but one where I am
actually understanding what needs to heal and how to heal it.
As
you experience the beautiful energy coming in, allow it to you a world
full of possibilities. As you then experience the dips, allow it to show
you where you have created limitations and let them go. This energy is
changing everything, not overnight, not in a blink of an eye, but
moment by moment. You are coming home, home to you, your full essence,
allow yourself to see what is not sustainable within you any longer.
I
recently was led to see a childhood experience from a new light. I
always suspected there was more to an invasive, inappropriate bath given
to me by my uncle, but I did not allow myself to look deeper. When I
did look deeper the more I was shown and understood. I realized that
though the incident were out of my control, my 6 year old self felt
quite differently. The child felt deep guilt, shame and a lack of trust.
During a shamanic journey, I was shown that this child still lived
feeling this profound pain and did not think it was worthy of being part
of me now. The guide I call ‘grandmother’ brought this child to me
during a journey and when I looked into her large brown eyes, her pain
was palatable. She hung her head in shame. I grabbed and held her,
stroked her hair and told her the truth – the truth was that she had no
reason to feel shame, nor guilt and that she could trust me, us. That I
forgave her for whatever she felt she needed forgiven for, but that she
didn’t have anything to be forgiven for. She was loved and had done
nothing wrong. She looked into my eyes and sensing that I meant it, gave
me a smile. I saw her then meld into my heart chakra becoming part of
me again. The grandmother told me that it was my job to make sure the
child felt save, loved and secure. I decided to write on my bathroom
mirror as a reminder “You are loved, you are safe, and you can trust
you”. I say it out loud every time I see it, allowing it to sink to my
core and comfort the child. The other day I woke and saw so clearly
within my mind a little blonde haired girl happily jump roping while
singing “Miss Mary Black, Black, Black, All dressed in black…” I smiled
and thought… I’m home.
Sending
you all lots of love and support as we go through this deep work. Thank
you so much to all who share this, it means the world.
Jenny
